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Amor, no es amor
Then what am i feeling
What am i doing wrong
Amor, no es amor
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Youth day! omg, i keep thinking we were having half day lah. But not bad, cause we got like 45 minutes off normal lessons. Lessons were boring shit. For the entire time during cme, amaths and bio, i was just hoping it will 11.45 then we can go watch the concert.

The concert was the bomb man!!! But i think some items were so stupid and boring. Thats the not the point, the point is the last performance blew the whole world away. OMG. Viki, Sharongoh, Malini and WendyTan danced to "buttons". OMG, it was damn damn damn damn coolio okay. All can shake so well!!! BUT THATS NOT THE POINT ALSO. THE POINT IS LEE JW, THAM, SEBASTIAN GOH and RAVI came out at the end and they sat at on the chair while the female SEXEH teachers tried to seduce them. Shit, i tell you. The whole world went CRAZY. Mr Lee was so damn damn coolio okay. hor. and the whole world is siao over sebastian. Ziying is crazy over tham. HA HA. Youth day celebration was nice nice.

Oh yah, Mrs tan made some changes to our seating arrangment and I could go for the don't know what Bio thing. yay.

I think i am suppose to be happy but i am not. In fact I hate this more. Fuck, i am afraid whatever i fear would happen will happen. It has been quite evident already. This sucks. This really sucks. I am so piss. I hate having to deal with this terrible feeling all over again. I am such a terrible person. Such a... selfish bitch.

Friday, 29 June 2007 // 18:31

I recieved a message from ziying. It went like this.
"HUIYI YOU THERE. Got accident at kim tian road OMG. Are you at home or ... what"
"She is in the hospital now. She has got a head injury and broke a few ear bones. Please inform her other relatives and friends. Mr Tan Shee Kong, police officer."
--- 5 SECONDS later---
ziying called. And she heard my voice and she got piss. Haha. <3 you darling. At least now i know you care for me. :P

Okay, i realise i haven't blog for a couple of days and i suddenly remembered funny scenes from the past few days since school reopen. :D:D
Act 1, scene 1
This play took place in the hall, during assembly. Nicole, Gayle and Huiyi, the three good girls happily forgot to bring their ties and were hiding from the devils of earth -- COUNCILLORS. So Joan, one of the devil (but a nice one) thaught us how to hide it.
Joan: Use your hand to cover the area of your tie!! (demostrates and she put her hand on her chin)
*nicole and huiyi tried doing it*
Huiyi: Looks as if we got beard. HU-ZI HU-ZI HU-ZI.
Ziying: (turns around) HUH?
--end of scene 1--

Act 2, scene 2
At coffee bean. Sherlyn, Nicole, Ziying and Huiyi, were bored and decided to find some fun looking at the table near ours where there was this girl caressing her boyfriend like there was nobody else around. So Sherlyn couldn't stand it and started to caress me as well (quoted from nicole). And everyone started laughing.
Sherlyn: omgomg, i cannot stand it.
*touches*
Huiyi: GO AWAY!!
*nicole and ziying laugh like there is no tomorrow*
sherlyn then decides to be funny and tried to bang her head on her table, as in play play lah, but she ended up REALLY banging her head on the table because she exerted too much force i think. There was a "BOMB" sound. :D:D

aiyah, enough of plays. quotes now.
"I like to be with you" -- Nicole. She actually meant "I like the song, [To be with you]" I thought why she suddenly so sweet lah. In the end. :(
"People got limited number of balls what." -- Leo. ;) haha Lee JW lah.
Thats all i can think of for now.

Whatever, today was as screwed as .. Chemistry. So you get the degree of screwdness? Lessons were okay today. In fact it was SO fun. Everything. I mean except english lah. I was praying and hoping that she will not call me. Tham was so funneh today. Mrs Low was the bomb. HAHAH, I LOVE HER TO BITS. But she say that my fish was too small and it might die. OMGOMG.
Mrs Low: Cleo, where is your work? Where is your notebook?? AIYO, Nirosha, why your table SO messy??
Nirosha: This is Cleo's things
Mrs Low: OH, see lah cleo, why you put your things there.
(Cleo starts to find for her notebook and she opened her ultimate messy table)
Mrs Low: (horrified) AIYO, it is time to clear your table ah. Later got dead cockroach inside you aslo don't know.
SHIT DAMN FUNNY HORHOR??? I WAS LAUGHING LIKE ANYTHING.

yes, so lessons were fun but ... guides. Hmm. It was okay lah. Being seniors entitled us to go spot check on the juniors anytime. So Shixuan wanted to go check on Sec1s and I decided to be a kaypo and followed her. Guess what, when we got there, they were slacking. haha, slacking after water break. Then Shi Xuan and I wanted to see their footdrills. Omg, their footdrills are perfect. So much better than ours. We ought to be embarassed for life. And i think some Sec 1s are really really sweet. Like they will greet us and they are so cooperative. We decided to thank a few of them before they went home. :D

Sing-a-long = Horror. It was so much worse than i thought it would be. Well, i won't say who is ti but some people were really so uncooperative and no matter how we shouted for them to sing louder, their volume will still be the same, or worse go softer. We got feedbacks that rachel and i were too soft, hmm, hopefully i will be able to train my voice by the next singalong. And it really sucks to be standing in front, trying so hard to not be embarassed and making everyone sing loudly but some people just pretend like you don't exist and they just keep talking or stoning when i ask them to sing. And the worse thing is, people look so bored and they ROLL their eyes at you when you say something. Rachel and I were demonstrating the "peace like a river" action, and right in front of me, two __ were talking and laughing away. Throw paper around somemore. I seriously think i am a ultimate failure programmer. The seniors made a huge mistake choosing me as a programmer. Seriously. I don't know how i am going to survive the rest of singalongs if i have to continue facing this kind of attitude.

BOO. Okay, time to do homework. Tons of homework waiting for me to touch them. Tomorrow there will be youth day celebration, and that = no chem. YAY! but no rudolph :( But hopefully i will get to see him on stage performing. HAHAH. BYE DARINGS.

Thursday, 28 June 2007 // 20:49

Today was so much worse than yesterday. The butterflies kept coming back. And when i sucessfully make it stop, this HUGE stone will just come and fall to the pit of my stomach. You, this is all your fault, you bitch. I know it doesn't mean anything at all to you but do you know how much misery it has caused me? You don't just keep promising and bringing up my hopes when you are so not going to fulfill it. You know what? I HATE THE YEAR 2007 BECAUSE OF YOU! great right? You actually have such a great power to determine what the rest of my year is like. I have always thought it was a stupid thing to mull over, but now, i really don't care anymore. Why am i trying so hard for? Who exactly am i trying to please? Or am i doing it to please myself? The thing is, no matter how hard i try, it just keeps failing on me. And worse, no one understands. Everyone just thinks i am being a stupid person and it is nothing actually. Yah, i know it is nothing, but i don't know how to stop myself from being such an emo sai. Why can't you just be like the others? Why do you have to poke your bloody nose into everything? Why can't you just leave us alone? I hate you. Every single time i start _, my mood will drop so much that i won't even have the energy or the interest to do anything. And when i get home, everything will just start squeezing the emo shit out of me. Your presence have ruined my life. Do you really enjoy making me feel so miserable? I hate you. I hate the sight of you. I hate the sound of you. Just thinking of you makes me want to kill myself. Hate doesn't seem strong enough at all. But what other words are stronger than hate? I can't sleep at night because of you. I can't bring myself to wake up and go to school because of you. School sucks to pure death. I cannot stand having to be tortured every minute and every second of life. Why not try screwing yourself? Maybe it will make you a better person. Seriously. you NEVER fail to spoil my mood. At one moment i can be laughing like no one's problem, but at the thought of you, my entire mind will just go blank and it will be filled with hatred. I don't like to come home cause there isn't any more distractions when i am home. Wow, you even make me hate home. Thanks. I feel like screaming into your face right now. But i have to thank you for one thing. Thanks for relieving my stress because crying helps to relieves stress right? DAMN YOU. BITCHBITCHBITCH.

Tuesday, 26 June 2007 // 19:22

I dread school so much. For the past two years in crescent, i have never hated school this much before. In fact, i use to hate hoildays and i will get so excited when the holidays are ending.

Freak. I hate everything about school. My _, my teachers, my studies, the stress, and for some stupid reason, i really don't want to think about my sitting arrangement. I thought i was over it. I hate cauliflower. Whatever. I am already an expert in wallowing in self pity.

And really, the only thing which i look forward to tomorrow is guides. Weird huh? That we use to complain how we dread going for guides and stuff. Haha, i love my fellow sister guides!

And once again, happy birthday sherlyn! So sad we didn't get to celebrate with you today. i love you!!

Sunday, 24 June 2007 // 16:15

HAPPY BIRD-DAY SHERLYN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Although you are freaking old now, we still love you despite all that wrinkles. Hopefully you can grow taller and catch up with me soon. Don't worry, I know its hard but you can make it hor?!? LURBS! and have fun on your birthday cause it comes ONCE A YEAR and ENDS IN 24 HOURS! (haha, sound familiar ziying?) Goodbye and Goodnight and since you love yellow (and one hundred other colours), this post is specially ah... for you? whatever.

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to SHERLYN....... (AHHHH...)
Happy Birthday to you!

I am such a sweetie pie. :D

// 00:22

For once, there isn't anything on. I don't know, i seem to be going out the past few days and finally i get to sleep until 1.30pm. YAY! I am so bored and i am so lazy to start on my chem workbook or my newspaper articles or anything. Anyway, I have been reading Rachel's blog for 500 times yesterday and today and i have been laughing non stop at all the pictures. Sherlyn is the best! HAHA

Friday, 22 June 2007 // 23:12

I am so lazy to blog about today although it was "very eventful" to quote ziying.

1. I was the latest to reach. And apparantly they all saw zhiyang in Macs and he was sitting close to them.
2. Started ice skating and i have no idea why i suddenly can skate. I really use to suck at skating. Can't even move an inch. Maybe it is a found hidden talent. HAHA right.
3. It wasn't really a bonding session afterall.
4. People left and uh... we lost the locker key and three tickets. Locker key:$15. 1 ticket: $30
5. We wanted to just pay for the locker key but the boss wasn't around so we had to request them to break the locker and we have to pay for that damage as well.
6. In the end, sherlyn went to ask them again and we settled on just having to $15 bucks. We found the tickets in ziying's bag which was in the locker. Hurray.
7. Sherlyn and Twinkle were stalking this white shirt guy who already has a girlfriend. And, omg. i need to be high to blog about this. Maybe tomorrow.
8. Went to Popular with rachel to get our files and notebook. And i think being a programmer gives us an excuse to splurge on things.
"OH!! this is so pretty!!"
"YAH YAH!!! LET'S GET IT!!... but its more expensive then this and we are on a budget"
"uh.. nvm, we are programmers what so must get nice, pretty things"
"OKAY!"
you get the point.
9. We got a pink file and i love notebooks.
10. Nicole is gone for the second day and i am so sad. :((

Thursday, 21 June 2007 // 23:46

I started my beautiful day beutifully for once. Great. So i woke up like really late but i didn't feel the need to rush at all. No one was pestering me and i was happily taking my own sweet time. As a result, I was late. :D

We didn't do much today. Got to know our posts better and started planning for the first few weeks' guide meetings. Gosh, the fact that we have taken over haven't sunk in yet. Yeah, so we introduced and presented what we are planning to do and then we got to practice roll call. It was quite okay. Actually today's meeting was more of planning and admin stuff so it was boring lah. I realise that taking over isn't an easy thing afterall. So many proposals and planning and keeping track of things like Puan Noor Aisah awards and Interunit stuff. I hope we won't die within half a month. Food drills was fun! ahahahah, Shixuan is the bomb man. The nice nice long long command became really weird when they tried it.

example:
Numbu something kekerak? not Numbu? Nunbul? huh?
Orang yang disebelem diam. DIAM. ahahaha shit. suppose to only have one diam. shit man. Shixuan you rock.

Tomorrow will be fun! haha imagine 22 guides going ice skating. Shitty bang bang. I am going to fall like nobody's problem.

oh yah. I need to credit this particular person for the tagboard. and that is jughead. haha THANK YOU HOZIYING FOR THE PRETTY TAGBOARD. okay? happy now? like sai lah you.

Rachel; OMG, XIANGYI IS THE ONE OKAY. and Birin is mine. Stop being stupid. tsk
Joan; HAHA, hi joan. hehe, er, i will add now. My arse is precious. :D
Xiangyi; I know you love me too. :D:D
Ziying; Whatever lah. Credit you already can. you neh even credit my paragraph please.
Sophie; SHITSHITSHIT. sophie you can replace nicole to be the clown of the month. SHIT "btw, what's a jughead?! O:" HEH???? jughead is uh.. this jug thing with a clown head. Don't be stupid can. hahahah Jughead is not even a thing. Archie comics???!

Nicole is gone to M'sia. I am so saddy. :( Oh, did i mention that i am going to watch "ELMO LIVE MUSICAL" at downtown east on Sherlyn's birthday?!?! haha, but of course i won't miss my darling's dinner treat. :D:D

Wednesday, 20 June 2007 // 22:25

shit the title is totally. I suddenly got reminded of Ziying's brother.

Anyway, I started my beautiful day with SHERLYN SHAGAR's wonderful voice screaming into the phone at 10.30 am (yes, i know its very early. )
S: HELLO HELLO HELLO. OMG I JUST WOKE UP. ARE YOU ALL DONE ALREADY?!?!?!
H: huh?
S: QUICK QUICK, GET OUT OF YOUR HOUSE NOW!!!!! MY GRANDMOTHER IS WAITING!
H: heh?
S:QUICKLY QUICKLY. TAKE A CAB DOWN MY HOUSE NOW!!
H: HOR.

Yes, I happily forgot about the date with Sherlyn's grandmother today. We were suppose to meet her grandmother for dim sum and it was at 11am - 2pm. So under the pressure of sherlyn's continuous calling, I had to rush like siao and when i reached her house. Guess what? She was HAPPILY choosing her bag and taking her own sweet time. Met Nicole and then went to the restuarant to meet her grandmother and ziying.

When we reach, we saw this really black face old woman staring at us with her two big eyes which looked like they were going to drop out (not sherlyn's grandmother, but hoziying :D) yes, we were late due to sherlyn and the stupid U-turns around clementi Mrt station. We were expecting just her grandmother but it turned out that she invited her other friends as well. So there were like 4 coolio grandmothers and 3 stupid teenagers and 2 innocent girls at the table (me and sherlyn's cousin:D) okay, the whole meal was so stress okay, we were all trying our best to be "high-class" and polite and stuff. And Sherlyn's grandmother kept stuffing us with food. omg, the shark's fin dumpling is BUGUS. The bill was $137 which is BUGUS-ER.

Then we tried to be funny and wanted to do something drastic. So we thought of going to marina then raffles place then suntec and then esplanade. But we ended up in Zara, Forever 21 and Top Shop. Everyone please shut up. Thank you. We are quite cool okay. We did try something drastic. All of us took like crazy outfits which no one will ever wear and we flooded the fitting room. Laugh and laugh and laugh then we came out of the dressing room with this HUGE mess of cloths in my hands cause they decided to be nice and leave nicole and I to return the mess to the sales person. Shit, Zara officially hates us.

It sucks not to be shopping without money. It makes me really really sad. :(:( I think i might burst soon. I can't restrain myself any longer, any kind soul who would like to help can start small by donating $1000 to my shopping fund. Thank you. There are people more unfortunate than you out there needing help, so start to day and call, no, don't need to call just pass me the money and you can scam. Thank you and have a nice day!


REPLIES REPLIES!
Joan; haha, oops. Haiyah, now you know already what. Anyway, you can blog about OBS already. :D She understands.
Zi Ying: haha, i am typing your name in the nicer way. Who ask you to HAPPILY copy my entire paragraph? HEH? no credits somemore. tsk.
Rachel: OMG, i thought he shaved too and i was angry cause he did not keep to his commitment. He was suppose to keep his hair long right? And Xiangyi is such an idiot like we all know.
Xiangyi: YUCKS. i knew you were interested in girls. ahahah. tsk Don't kiss me in public anyway. YES! okay when? er, school reopen? or before school reopen?

Tuesday, 19 June 2007 // 21:13

I am so feaking piss.

I don't understand how some people can just keep taking and taking without even bothering giving at all. Isn't it suppose to be a two way thing? I feel like being a bitch. seriously.

Goodbye Peeps, i am off to wallow in self pity.

// 17:59

I started my beautiful day by waiting for the three idiots to appear. THANKS GUYS! okay, so we were SUPPOSE to meet at jurong library at 9.30 am and we were SUPPOSE to do our mountain full of homework and i ended up waiting for one whole hour for ziying, nicole and sherlyn to appear. (breathes in deeply) We went to Macs and there was this crazy man sitting near us and he kept asking us to keep quiet when we weren't even making noise. >:(

Er, so in the end we ended up watching Fantastic 4. hehehe. I mean, we did do abit of work so .. haiyah, fine we are slack shit. We were just happily lying sexily (ziying) and telling jokes and talking about shopping. Fantastic 4 was not as fantastic. I prefer Spider 3. But human torch is such a cutie!! :D:D

Then Nicole had to leave for tuition. So the Terrific 3 walk to IMM and we were quite pathetic. Shut up nicole. We went to Esprit and then we went to Mos to grab a bite. Btw, BIG NEWS!! HO ZIYING CAN SHARE SALIVA ALREADY! Thats good news cause we get to share her food and help her to lose weight but for some reason, she is eating more than usual. She ate 2 burgers when we suppose to be just grabbing a bite. Yes, someone please save her. When we were buying food, this stupid man came up to us and scolded us in front of his girlfriend cause we left our bags on the chair without guarding them. GOSH so irritating. Today is a bad day to go to fast food restuarants. We sat around talking about nothing and just ignoring sherlyn's hints for her birthday presents. I tell you, she is thick skin like don't know what. We were asking her to treat us and she was like "My present must be at least 8o% of the price of the threat." Wth right? SHERLYN SHAGAR, YOU STILL OWE ME MY PRESENT FOR LAST YEAR. HUH? WHAT HAPPEN TO PIGLET??? MY HANDPHONE ALREADY LOST AND THE HEAD IS STILL NOT HALF DONE?!?!? sherlyn darling, i was done long ago but since you pester me ..:D


yeah, agree with you trina. Reading people's blog just make me sad.

Monday, 18 June 2007 // 21:37

gosh. i read everyones' blogs and tags and this sinking feeling is back. Why do i have to miss OBS so much? Its all Birin's fault. So nice for what? :(

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Haha, today woke up really early cause i had a nightmare. Daddy and mummy wanted to bring us out for breakfast which was weird cause its damn early and we seldom wake up so early as a family. Went to BK and then to marina to shop!! I am so bloody sad okay. There is a freaking sale everywhere and guess what? I am already negetive $100 therefore i am totally broke. So i tried to suck up to mummy but she refuse to buy me anything cause "its father's day, not daughter's day." Where is the logic? Oh yes, and they just came back from Thailand buying a hell lot of things while i was away for OBS. :(

We walk until .. 5? and then off to Swensens for ice cream. Haha, so this manager came and ask my brother what he wanted and as usual my brother was ACTING shy and speaking softly. So i was telling my mum that he is so ungentlemanly and such a miser and so shy that i wonder if he actually has a _. I also commented that it might be as small as a peanut. My brother heard and started screaming at me and my mum was like "its okay. Now is peanut, next time sea cucumber." OMG. It is damn funny. I was laughing until i had to cancel my pasta cause my stomach was too painful. <3 I gave Daddy his present last week cause i was afraid i might die at OBS.

Tag replies!!
Mich: HEY GIRL! bet you miss me the most.
Cari; haha, whatever. Who cares about you lar. Its your own fault that you shit so long right. And my ants bites are so painful!!!
Gayle; oops. hehehe. ER, i go link now. sorry sorry :D yeah, i miss all the instructors too! BIRIN! andy, lum and .. whats her name? jackey is it?
Ziying; LURBS CHARLIE!
Trina; :( yeah. But it won't be our last! We will have more in future okay? except without Birin. :(
Xiangyi; AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! XIANGYI DARLING! hahaha, you freaking pervert. Stop lying. tsk tsk and since when did i say you were sexy?!?!?!?!
Sophie; Oh, i am so so honoured sophie :D:D
Nicole; I LOVE YOU!
Rachel; Birin is mine Rachel. Don't even think about it. haha
Theresa; sorry for spelling your name wrongly. I will remember it now! and i miss you too. I miss the whole of Cousteau!

okay. done with tag replies. Anyway, WHERE ARE YOU SLYVIE? I want pictures!

I know you are feeling horrible right now. But i really hope things will get better and that you won't be so affected by it anymore. Things will get better so don't worry so much and stop killing yourself okay? Love you darling.

Sunday, 17 June 2007 // 23:02

whoots. This blog is FINALLY up thanks to TRINA (and ziying). I will dedicate a post to the both of you later.

Okay, got back from OBS yesterday and i am missing it already. Actually i missed it since we got on the boat back to pungol. Like everyone, i am going to post a long post about OBS for memory sake as well and also cause i promise Trina. So here it is.

Day 1: "Welcome to OBS"
Day 1 was really a bad day for me. I was so scared and sian when we reach ubin and when i got my group, i was like "god, what kind of name is COLESTRAW? (cousteau)" but luckily rachel and sophie were in my group so it was kinda cool. 3 guides. no 4 actually. Then we were introduced to our instructors and that was when we got to meet the world's greatest instructor EVER, BIRIN! We had to pack our stuff in the store and then changed into our wet cloths cause we were going kayaking. The entire kayaking experience was great. But at that time, i really didn't enjoy it at all - having to carry the kayaks, get all wet and smelly, and had sand in our shoes. Kayak-ed with sophie and rachel and yes, we were good. *winks* haha. But Birin didn't follow us cause of his leg injury so we had another instructor.

Washed the kayaks and Birin told us to go bathe and cook our food before meeting him for "interaction session" and that was when everything we learn in guides came in. haha, we managed to pitch the tents without the instructors help. :D So it was the interaction session. Met Birin and he said "Okay, i am going to bring you all to a place but DON'T switch on your torchlights and DON'T scream, you might scare others." i tell you, at that time we were so scared, thinking that we were going for night walk but in the end we realise that he tricked us. tsk. So ended up in Ubin's greatest place ever- the jetty. It was so peaceful and nice and it was really soothing. From there we could see Singapore with all the pretty lights and i really wanted to be home. I missed everything and anything in Singapore. Interaction session was so great and we found out that there was going to be a fire drill at like 10. So the bell sounded and Lum used his stupid finger thing to try and make us move. SLEEP.
DAY1's DINNER: rice, peanuts, baked beans.

Day 2: "Only you can make a difference in your life"
Woke up really early to pack our backpacks cause we had to hike all the way to Camp 1. We had breakfast before we played some really stupid games with the other watches. It was some egg, chicken, eagle, superman, ultraman game. and guess who won?? Took the map and our bags and started heading down to camp 1. We had to complete this "obstacle" on the way which is saving a casualty to the other end of this really long log thing with no one falling off at all. The game taught us alot. We manage to finish it within an hour and that entitled us to a shorter route to camp 1. It was really hard at first but cousteau NEVER gives up. Camp 1 was pretty and clean. We got to sleep under this shelter area cause it was raining. haha, i will always remember that scene. All of us sleeping in all kinds of position around that area. Belayed and climbed. Birin tricked us AGAIN that we could sleep in the bunks. I was so happy okay. idiot. We ate as a watch in the canteen and then pitch tents, bathed and it was time to go for the expedition meeting.

Day 3: "i am here not to change people's life, but to share my experience and guide them"
EXPEDITION! ziying's group (magellan) was the navigator. We had to row boat to another island. The rowboats were huge and heavy and the ores and crazily HEAVY. After we landed on the island, we started changing behind ponchos and bushes. Got to see quite alot of people's bare butts. Hike to campsite. We were suppose to be first!! but we turn the wrong direction at the last junction so we reached there second. But it was still earlier than expected. Pitch tent and then we realise that one of our tents were missing but luckily Nila Utama found it. :D didn't bathe at all cause there were no toilets. OMG, then the highlight of the day - the pee-ing session. It was so funny okay. We all needed to pee but it was so dark and no one dared to go down to the beach by ourselves. So teresa, slyvie, cari, xiangyi, mich (i think) and i hold hands and walk down to the beach. So we stood in one straight row, one arms length apart. 1,2,3 and we pulled our pants down together and started peeing. Cari didnt do it with us cause she needed light so after we were done, i helped her to shine the light while she change her pad. omg, she is the ultimate. She took close to 10 minutes to change one pad and all of us were getting killed by the ants already. Then there was this big wave. It came so suddenly that we all screamed and when we turn to look at cari, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA IT WAS SO FUNNY. i shan't go into details cause i will definately remember that. i didn't got to see wild boars. oh i forgot to mention that xiangyi and i screamed really crazily when this huge animal ran past us. This camp taught me how to scream. ;) the sentry duty was the best. people kept knocking the sticks to scare wild boars and no one could sleep lah, including the instructors.

*knock knock knock*
"Stop knocking the sticks"
*knock knock knock*
"I SAY STOP KNOCKING THE STICKS!"

haha best <3 xiangyi SUDDENLY woke up and screamed for i have no idea what reason and someone thought she was a wild boar. hahah. I started loving my watch. oh yah! and Birin cooked this really nice meal for us. haha THANKS BIRIN! before we slept, birin told us this ghost story which wasn't true but it scared the hell out of me

Day 4: "This is the real world. Trust your instinct. Bring along your fears and jump" SEA EXPEDITION! haha cousteau was the navigator and we rock. whoots. nothing much, just kayaked and kayaked and finally we found the river. I hate the river. We kept banging into the trees and insects will drop into our boat. There was this catapillar on my sleeve and it was so so gross i almost fainted. We got lost quite a few times but in the end, CHARLIE (made up of cousteau, magellan, hillary and nila utama) worked together and we found the mud barn. The mud barn was so irritating. I was so tired just helping all the boats up and back out into the river. I slipped a couple of times and finally all the boats were out. We started off really late but in the end we were so much ahead of schedule cause Charlie rocks big time. We found the second obstacle really fast and we had lunch which was our ration food and we set off. Found the way out to sea again and the sense of achievement was overwelming. We saw our destination and together as charlie, we form our diamond and moved forwards despite all our tiredness. Our spirits got lifted and we sang and sang until we reach the place. We reached at like 3 and all of us started keeping our kayaks and stuff and we gathered together in a circle where Lum announced that WE DID IT! The sense of achievement was really really great. I am so proud of everyone. Then Birin told us that we were going to do jetty jump. I was so scared okay. But before we jumped, Birin asked us to close our eyes again and he said "You all have done well. You all have been through alot together and this will be the last thing we will do before all of you leave OBS. I won't call this an activity, i won't force you to it. This jump is a meaningful jump. Bring your fears along with you when you jump and throw it away into the sea. Believe in yourself" and i started tearing.

We really have been through alot alot alot. As a watch. As Charlie. And after that, i didn't hesitate at all to just jump down and get rid of all my fears. Everyone did it. We went back to store, bathed, and met Birin for dinner. He was so nice cause he helped us cook our dinner. Dinner never tasted that nice before. I guess the last night together as Cousteau really made me start loving OBS. It was the last night as a watch. Dinner was fun. No one cared about the insects or the dirtiness anymore. We just sat together, ate, laughed and talked. We wrote a song for Birin and we requested to go to the jetty for the last night. The atmosphere was so gloomy. He told us to think about something we missed and then he said "This is your last night here. Look around you and enjoy this scenery for the last time." i think. really, at that time no one in my watch was homesick. we were really enjoying the last few hours together at that jetty. We sang him the song and he was really touched. We all started crying. I love Cousteau. I love Birin. oh yah, teresa and i went waited for cari for a long time again cause she was in the toilet and it was lights out already.

Day 5: "this is our last circle"
Day 5 was worse than Day 1 cause we had to leave all this behind. We were leaving ubin. The five days past really fast. We bonded alot as a watch and i guess it was hard to leave it behind. Packed our store and bags before meeting Birin for our last circle. It was raining which gave this really sad atmosphere. We sang "My Love" to him and did a commitment thing. Bought stuff then gathered around for the last briefing. Did stupid surveys. And then Birin asked us to form the really last cirlce and he was like "This is the our last circle. I don't believe i should be the one to give out the certificates because you all did it together" so he gave us different certificates and we gave each other the certificates. We really finished it. We sang him the song again in front of other watches and all of us cried once again. I think Cousteau cried close to 4 times on the last day. We didn't manage to say a proper bye to him. Back to school.

This camp had a great impact on me. It changed me actually. I was pushed beyond my limits and this wasn't possible at all if i didn't had Cousteau and Birin. I LOVE YOU ALL COUSTEAU!

Thank you Rachel for guiding us safely and quickly back to camp 2 and helping me hold the poncho while i change.
Thank you Sophie for helping out whenever you can and kayaking together with rachel and i back to "home".
Thank you Trina for being so high and crazy and cam-whoring with me and also for coming out with the tune for the song.
Thank you Mich for being our broken down radio. Continue singing cause music = life.
Thank you Xiangyi for just being so crappy. Its a torture sleeping next to your tent with all that sleep talking going on. haha. and have fun with your baby. OH yah, i will never forgive you for taking a picture of my bare butt.
Thank you Theresa for the stupid times together when we were waiting for Cari to finish her shitting and lying to us that you weren't from choir.
Thank you Cari for that wonderful highlight of the night on the third day. haha, don't shit so long next time.
Thank you Slyvie for being so strong and tough and helping us carry all the heavy heavy stuff. Thank you Denise for helping us pack the store when we were all so slack to do anything. You da best!
Thank you Cindy for carrying big pot all around and helping us to row the boat for a long time. Thank you Jenem for being such a great eater and clearing up our food. haha
Thank you Dhanu for all your great ideas and openess.
Thank you Jesselyn for being SO EVER HELPFUL!
Thank you Jingli for just cooperating and helping out whenever you can.

and last but definately not least, THANK YOU BIRIN! You really impacted me alot. From all the sessions with you, i learn alot alot of things and i realise alot of stuff i was oblivious to at first. You are a great instructor and you made me feel so protected and safe and thats why i was willing to give everything a shot. Thank you for not forcing us and don't worry, you have done your job well. All of us Cousteau are really happy to have you as our instructor. I will remember all your encouragements, all the tricks you played on us and all the good and bad times we had together as a watch. Its sad to not be able to say a proper goodbye to you. Maybe ten years down the road, you might not remember us but you will definately be remembered by every single one of us.

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Okay, i think i should end here. I have much more to say but i guess i should just keep all these memories inside me. Thank you Cousteau for being there for me and for all the good memories i had. I am glad that i met you all at this camp and whatever happens in future, we will always be Cousteau.

I am glad to be back too though. Loads of things i missed. My friends, my family and everything. Its great to be home. :)

Saturday, 16 June 2007 // 17:46

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Lok Huiyi
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